Im finally able to post videos again. I still don't know what was going on. So now I will be trying to post at least two a day, consider one a post from the tardis and the other that days. So here's today's.
Its kinda funny its been pretty much 2 years. Obviously not a funny haha. But I'm finally not torn apart every day because of it. And when I am its usually just a deep ache, usually. Now comes the time where I have to wall off. Now I have two halves of my heart. There is the half that still loves you, and will always do; than theres the half that is just open for what the world has for me. And you know I hope that there is some day where I can listen to the half that loves you and fall for you again. Now though I have to listen to the other and hold to the hope that someone will make it grow to where it dwarfs the other and you and I can just be friends in my heart. But what I said was true when I say those three words I mean them always and forever.
For now I walk the wall between my two halves, and I guess these two songs are kind of what they are
The half that still loves you
maybe some day you'll feel that loneliness you see in this girl and you know what I was there and if we tried could be there to fill that, and make your heart swell again.
And then there's the part of me that wants to listen to what some others say and just go out and find someone new. This is as close as I could get, the song I heard I was driving so I couldn't write it down but basically, fall in love again, but with someone new
now the bonus song I heard today. I heard it and I just thought we could, we could live like never before, its not like it was back then, and there's something about just the way the song sounds...its like although the lyrics may be only half right. or more complicated than it sounds to begin with but its there. That feeling of blue hope. I don't know, maybe when there is anther chance I'll sing hallelujah and have it mean what it really should mean. I don't mean what it should mean in a church, but what it should mean everyday. Just listen to how it sounds and maybe you'll get what I'm saying
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