in the meantime

you might be wondering why I haven't posted in so long.  It is not a lack of conviction like one of you readers have suggested.  I have been testing myself, trying to force a change and I've been doing pretty well all things considered.  So the reason I haven't posted, just kept the songs in my head, is because I've been waiting for us to just spend some time together, not these like 10 minute walks or chatting just before I leave town.  Some thing more like an afternoon together or even just an hour.  I want to test myself and see how well I have done on walling you off into just a corner of me.  Even though we reached over six hundred on the counter that only a handful really know about.  You remember it I bet. well tonight there's one more click to be added to it.  but I will post again soon, one way or the other I have to get this out of my chest...not off just out.