The (Fourth) Elephant in teh room

I like many listen to music while I'm getting ready for the day, and the song in this post came up then.  My ancient ipod mini was the one that brought it up and then later it came up again while I was trying to sleep.  Its funny how a song can come along on shuffle and it doesnt matter what plays before it, AC/DC Linkin park something that gets the blood flowing, and then this song comes along and your blood stops.  Its like you are in the music almost.  everything you hold back wells up and pretty soon you can't even see. It only stopped me in mid motion in the shower...but when I was laying there in bed trying for the love of all things holy to sleep before 3am again it hit me harder.  pretty soon there was a little blurring on the book I was reading and I felt something wet rolling down my face.  I wasn't crying or dwelling on a sad memory, this song comes on and makes me just FEEL how I miss her, didn't matter that all the lyrics weren't spot on.  The way it felt just made sense.  hearing it made everything simple for those few minutes and I just simply knew how much I missed her, for those few minutes that's all I was all every fiber of myself did.  So if your missing someone listen to that feeling, don't hide from it, don't repress it.  It's how you feel and pushing that away is like swimming deeper into a lake when you've already run out of air.  without more muttering here's the video for today

I miss this girl being there, when she was there and we tried to sleep I slept.  And for me a restful sleep is a rare thing.  I miss her and even though others have slept in the bed either to help me sleep or because They wanted more its never the same.  They can't paint an elephant quite as good as she.