The Second

Today a though occurred to me, its been more than a year and almost a half.  And yeah theres is room for someone new to come along, don't know who or she'd be here.  But I've been searching myself  and just because there could be someone else doesn't mean that she's not there, that in my heart I still love this girl who's so complicatedly simple (in the since that she's both at the same time). 

This girl is in a very exclusive set of clubs.  The first has two members, the woman I have said I love you to, and meant it.  I don't say those words lightly and when I do you know it, hopefully not just because of words.

The Second, that one she's got kinda an exclusive membership, maybe always will or maybe just be a founder.  This 2nd club is the woman I was old enough inside and out to know I really meant it.  I loved the good the bad the ordinary and odd about this woman.  The thing is I still do, and the way I love it doesn't just stop.  There's a saying most of the christian readers out there will know; Love Never Fails.  That is something I aspire to, and seem to have in me.  When I love, I love.  So She'll always have a place in my heart, hopefully my life.  But its not all the love I have to give even if its with all my heart.

So without further contradictory rambling here's today's video for the 24th (even though technically itsthe25th)

   It is every time I hear her name, whether its about another friend with her first name, a movie star with ther first or last name, or a place with her last name in it.  I have a flash back to her all of her for a micro second, a few minutes or maybe a long while I get her in my head.  I might be able to be with someone new but I might keep looking a little blue German cars to see if they have Washington plates...