Being out here surfing the proverbial time stream again Allows a guy to turn an eye inward. Odd I know a guy actually thinking about what he does. (pause for female audience to laugh and guys to grumble). But really that's what I do on the nights I can't sleep and have nothing I can find to occupy my mind. And a lot of times to come up with something that facsimiles the complex or intuitive ideas are metaphors(or similes), sometimes which only makes sense to me. So hopefully last nights metaphor will make sense.
Picture a river, largest river you've ever seen or been too. Now imagine it larger to the point where you can barley see the green on the other side marking the line of tall trees there. When you think of the surface picture it as a smooth surface, sure wind gusts cause it to ripple over but its still and calm. But below is a strong current. An almost unstoppable thing. Gentle in its way but still not going to be deterred from being what it is a current that wont stop till it reaches its sea. Well In a lot of ways the reason I'm writing this blog and the way I feel is just like that. No longer as insistent on the surface but none the less an inexorable pull towards my Sea. Along with that is a patience almost as old as time. A river doesn't mine how many twists and stops it takes to get to it's final destination, it continues to wear its way through the earth till it finally reaches it. And that's how I am now despite any inner turmoil. I am patient. I will be as patient as it takes to have a second chance. And when or if I get it I will be as patient and wear-with-all as she needs to make it last as long as the rivers run.
Now without much more rambling is today's video. I found it when I was editing a page of mine from ages ago. And it still rings true. It reminded me of how much I knew she meant at the beginning to me. And yet when I lost that knowing that even deeper, one of those things that goes beyond just knowing. Having it be indelibly true.
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